Today...... was some what of a sucky day.
I babysat my nieces and thats was it really!
Nutthn else interesting here in my life.
Although........ Tomorrow I'm goun over to my friends house and I am totally excited about that.
Its gonna be soo soo soo much fun. We're gonna take picturaz! and hang out. Its gonna be a Hella Hella Sweet Time!

*( Bad ass bitch, I'm rated X. I'm gifted and gonna sell sex.)*

LOL...... can you guess who's the Artist that siong this VERSE?!?!?!?!

So ladies and gentlemen
Today was La Candelaria....... meaning if you really hella mexican then you fully know of this past time tradition!
On January the 6th...... the family sits down and we all eat a piece of sweet bread with candied fruits on top. BUT... and this is where the reall kicker is fellows. Is that inside theres a lil toy baby. And if you were to recieve the lil baby. Well then on February the 2nd you have to make a BIG dinner and basically a feast for the people who held witness of this glorious but horrid occasion. And this year the full burden of this lil holiday fell upon ME........... yess me.
So of course yesterday I completely blacked out the whole ordeal. Until my sister called and reminded me of it. I had nothing planned and it was like 7pm. and i didn't want to go to walmart. So I did what any self-respected person would do who's on a time crunch.
I raided the house. I decided tha I had enough frozen veggies and frozen seafood mixes that I could pull it off. Soo I made a Seafood Extravaganza! I made seafood soup...... it was moderately ok. And I fried up some catfish.....where my dad was able to have soo much seafood is beyond me. And how old that stuff was is ......WAYYY beyond me.
Anywhooo, I made rice but it came out horrible. I think it was because that I didnn't have the rice I always use. and ended up using this brown rice i found behind the canned tuna.
Sooo after hours and hours of cleaning and cookn we finally sat down to eat. I like the bread i toasted the most though! lol
I guess thats what you get when you let a 22 yr old cook for an ARMY! :-P
AH WELLZ!
Now i'm just sippn on water and typin my fingers away! lol

Soooooooooooooooooooooooo
152 weeks ago was my last journal entry here.
I find that Hilarious! lol
And in that 152 loongg weeks....... alot of things have happened.
I'm 22 years now and I'm still tall just crazier.... I guess.
Jessica was my BEST FRIEND....... but now we're barely friends. We were super close..... but because of situations and feelings and a spur of emotions. We ended up having thsi HUGE fight and stopped being friends. But then we kinda made up, but by then it felt as if things have gone too long that it even if we did try. Things wouldn't be the same. And it not.... Jessica is happy and married. That lil BUNNY actually got married. lol..........And me, well I'm still single. lol
But I do wish her all the best of luck and I hope her future decisions have a good everlasting effect on her lIfe. <333
I have a new best friend........margaret.
I mean I will always have my VAL VAL as a BEST FRIEND...... she's totally Krazy!
But margaret  seems to be alot like me...... in alot of ways. I guess thats why we get along soooo well. But lets hope things stay the same. :)
I haven't gone to school in a long time, going to be 2 1/2 years after this term. I miss school, but I don't want to go until I know what I wanna do. I don't wanna be like those people that go for years changing thier major every few semesters. I wanna go when I know what I wanna do, that way the drive to get it done is more immense. I think I wanna be a Fashion Designer......... or at least have something to do In fashion. I think that would be alot of funn and even though its gonna be hard work. But I mean HELLA HELLA HARD WORK..... I will love it and think its funn no matter what. lol
Currently unemployed and looking for a job. But I'm actually loving being home sooo much. Granted I hate it cuz I get bored most times. But not having to worry that i have clean clothes the next day, or a lunch or even have to wake up early ........ is such a RELIEF! lol
But with all this free time I'm wayy more artistic. I'm drawing and writting more. HENCE the updation on this nifty lil site. :-)
I actually started writting a book. Its streaming like road runner out of my mind into the comp. Its really good..... at least I think so. And hella hella funny with a hint of CUTENESS! lol
Its gonna be a BEST SELLER......... plus movie royalties for the future. :-D

My taste in music has always been different. I've alwyas liked wierd and well wierd stuff.
I'm in love with French and J-pop or even k-pop........ LOVE J-ROCK! GAWD! its melts like BUTTA! lol :P

I will be back to write more! Gotta lOVE ME! lol

 

 

Ok then. Last friday Shawna came to my house at like 11:30 at night. We had to go to Wal-mart to buy ciggies for Nicole's MOM. That nerd.
Anywhoo, So yah Shawna then and for now on decided to stay at my house. So she spent the night and we had loads of fun. The next day, which was Saturday. Jessica came over and so did Nicole and then we decided to watch movies and hang out. jess spent the night and we had a hella CRAZY time drinking tea and eating bread with honey. Lol
On Monday, which was yesterday Me and shawna played tennis for 5 hours straight. I'm uber sore but we're gonna go again later today. GAWD!
I am sooo lovin Tennis. Its Funn!, Lol


I think I want to do all the fun things in the WORLD!

So yah I was bored and I updated my Live Journal.
And let me just say.............I LOVE IT!
This roxx. I love the color and everything. I am in love with the poopy of it and it needed that change of color. Lol
Now I feel like chaning my myspace. But ehhh some other day or mayeb even later if I'm that bored. lol



Alby <3

Well, this weekend was kinda of a snooze. I guess you can say that. So far it has been one.
Instead of doing what we usually do, ya know me and mom go to my dad's lunch and then to the mall. Which I don't mind cuz I get to be out of the house and I get to go to the bookstore. Not soo bad. But this weekend they decide to go to Houston to go see the Houston people. UGH!
I don't like them at all. There are a few exceptions, There's Diana and Isac and their kid. I think they're kool and really down to earth and not all like, We're adults so what we say go. Ya knwo that Bull Crap. Maybe cuz their around Guera's Age. Their young. And then there's Ramon and his Wife and their baby.They're Kool people and thats all I have to say about them.
So my parents went to houston and shawna was going out with Jason again. I wanna spend time with her before she leaves but she's always got plans with jason. Ah well, times runnin by and she's alreday leaving this Wednesday. I'm gonna miss her. *sighs*
So I spent my night yesterday with Guera. It was good we laughed alot. Since it was only me and her and the baby. WE mostly just talked and around 9 or 10 she went to bed with the baby. And in a way I had the house all to my self. I watched the Tv and got online. And went to bed at like 1am, but spent the following hour just on my bed listen to my music on my headphones. I wanted to call Jess, but I wasn't sure if she was awake or WHAT!
Usually she's online but I guess this weekend was hella crazy for her. Lol
Anywhoo its Sunday mornin. And I AM JUST HERE! O_o


Alby <3

I think after so many years of hearing it and knowing about it. I know why, Its not a big part of it but it is a part of the reason why I am the way I am.
Lately I've been hearing alot about feeling good for yourself and being empowered of who you are and being strong and all the great stuff. Granted I hear it on The Tyra Banks Show. And it is more targeted towards women. BUt I think that the message not only conveys to women but to men as well. And people in this age or Era are soo into how they look and how they feel that its conflicting to be living the way I am. I mean I ain't gonna lie. I am BIG. I am FAT. And I have no problem with that. I know I seem very confident and that I can be and do anything that I want. And I know that I'm a great person and I know I'm an honest soul and I am just Me. But I know I have flaws and I know that i'm not perfect. And because of these flaws and growing up with negative comments around me, always made feel bad about myself. And its not like I wnat to point fingers but its my mom.
She's the one who makes side comments and nasty ones but her inetent is to never hurt us. But the problem is.........hse just doesn't realize that it does.
When I was younger I never thought I was good looking, or that anyone should even waste thier time looking at me. I mean I was FAT, granted I still am. But I was FAT,had glasses and always had long hair. I had long hair cuz I felt protected in a way. I felt like people coudln't judge me, because I was covering my ugly face. I had acne problems and still do till this day but not soo bad. But something happened to me that changed me for the best. I don't know when exactly when it happened and I changed for the best. But I would think that it was the start of my senior year.
My Father had just left to Iraq that spring of 2004. I felt awful, I felt bad, and I was depressed. And without knowing it I had rebelled against everyone that surrounded me. The people who had loved me and cared for me, had become my enemies. Just for simply breathing. I had saw myself as being weak and to emotional. So I decided that I needed to make myself stronger and colder to resist the hurt, the pain and the frustration I had of being me and being just here in Texas. I had saw my sister as a role model to be mean and cruel. I liked the idea of being bad and not caring what people thought of me. And that was one of my first steps to being who I am today. I know it didn't turn out the way it would have been if I had kept up that way. I didn't know that by not caring what people thought, that I would be hurting the people around me and distancing the gap that we already had to an unreachable jump. I did turn into what I had originally planned out to be. Like my sister Guera cold and mean to everyone, even my mom. I even fought with Guera and made her cried. But I cried as well.
I didn't mean it to get to the way it did. Didn't mean it to get that bad. I jsut lost myslef in soo much anger that I lost balanced of the way I should have been. By the time I started my senior year I had cooled down and wasn't soo hot headed. And that was important cuz then I wouldn't have made the friends I made. And the life long comittment to be a better person.
Starting Culinary introduced me to a variety of characters and personalities. That I could focus. I was lost and didn't know my own self. I saw all the funny people and hwo they were and I started to copy them. I felt like a follower a feeling that I never wnat to expeince again.
I found myself copying other people, not what they wear, but in how they acted and how they were.
I mean before I wnet all cold and mean, I really didn't have much of a perosnality. I think I had one for close friends, czu Val says she sees no difference in me. Just Confidence. So I guess close friends only saw the real me. But before to the eyes of all, I had no personality at all.
So I copied and adapted to my surrroundings and made everyoen loved me. After, awhile I found that I didn't have to copy people, because I got sooo confident in how others acted that I felt confident in the way I really am. The real me. So I started being more like me. And thats how I got to be good friends with my best friend Jessica I guess. She says I'm a jerk with a big ego. But a nice one. And thats just part of that cold person in there. I didn't like being mean to people, so I offted to jsut being honest and kind about it all.
So by the end of my Senior year, I had acquired a new sense of Self. One that I could be proud of, one that I like. I was Honest and have a Big Ego. But kind and generous to people. And at leats give people one chance. I was busting with Self-Confidence.
But even the most confident get they're down times. By the end of my Senior Year, my dad had come back. We had a rocky start because I was self-confident to quetsion him in everything instead of shutting up and doing what he told me to do. I would back fire him with what he says is my Attitude. I don't see it like that, but just the truth. And the truth hurts.
Thinking about how I used to be and how much I have grown. I have mixed feelings. I am happy that I have changed and grown soo much, that I have gone thorugh leaps and bounds to become the person I am today. But at the same time, I feel sad and horrible about the person I was before and how could I have survived being that sad and that depressed. I use to cry myself to sleep evrynight. And dread wakeing up to see the next day. I had tried to commit suicide a few times. Never did it. I tried to kill myself by pillz. Never did it. I tried to just sleep myself to death. Unattainable.
But a big part of my depression, my sadness and my unappreciation for myself comes ffom my surroundings. My environment. And lately, I feel soo empowered and strong and soo full of confidence that I feel that I do look Good. That if I lost weight. WHo knows. I can prolly be a model. I even flirt. I feel soo strong, but everyday, every few moments. I find that I am being not attacked............but brought down by negatives comments my mom makes of me. She says these comments and expects them to just roll off me like they did in the past. And the more she does it. the more I feel bad, and the more I get angry. And I feel sorry for her. That her being my mother, knowing fully well how I feel about myself. That she would pick and make funn of me. I really think that the reaosn why I dislike Karina soo much is because she is soo much like my mom. But different the same way. My mom, I know she loves me, I can feel her love towards me. BUt I can also feel her nasty comments to me as well. And she does it to make herself look better.
Same with karina, whenever its Karina and her Friend. Karina finds one way or another to be mean to me and make fun of me. Just to make me feel bad and to take the attention off her and her weight problems. I use to get soo hurt, so embarresed and soo angry. But now, I don't care what she thinks. Cuz I know that I'm more mature than her. And I also believe in karma and thats why her life is soo messed up and suxxy and why mine is going great. Because what goes around comes around. But it does hurt when my mom does it. Cuz its my mom. She's the one who is suppose to love me no matter what belt size I am.
But ah well, I feel that her constant negative put downs. Will only help me in a way. So I'm gonna take those negative comments and turn them aroudn for me. And make me more determine to loose weight. They will hurt and no matter waht, it break a piece of me each time. But I will triumpht and get stronger in time. I will prove her wrong and everyone out there that ever doubted me and made me feel ashamed of being me.
I have changed, I have growned. But most importantly is that I love who I am and how I am. despite my flaws and my imperfections. I know that I have a beautiful soul.

Well, what can I say now. But that I am here again. I haven't written in this for a long time. And well not much really to say since my last entry.
The holidays came and wnet, and soon winter will do the same as well. I've reconnected with my friend Jessica. We talk now again..........and I hope we don't loose touch at all.
People know that I'm gay. WHo knows I don't really care. But I am a lil scared of what will happen when my parents find out, hopefully. I'm able to take care of myslef when the time comes and I can leave home.
I've had a few close calls and my curiousity gets the best of me, especially when home alone and on the internet. So I always have to be careful if I wanna see how its done. Lol
Right now, Hernan is in the hospital. Taking care of Guera's and his baby is a hard task. I really have to hand it to guera, at how hard is to be a caregiver, a parent and well in charge of something so small. I knew it was hard before and I would babysit for a few hours. BUt having the baby almost all day was hard enough. With a fuzzy baby, all she wnats is just her mama.
If jessie bunnie reads this she'll know that I skipped school again today and that right now I'm just laying around doing nutthin. So afr utthin really exciting is goin on in my life, But I did find out that the guy I liked has now has a GF. I wasn't shocked or hurt or anything. I was just felt like, I dunno. Like ah wellz. And that was wierd. But I'll make him mine. LOL
Two more days till the weekend and I've only been to school one day. Lol
GAWD I SUXX!

So, yah in class and such. yesterday I didn't call my Jessi Bunnie. Cuz OMG, I was talking to her and then when I got inside I hung up with her to call her back on the house phone. but my dad all like No no, I need you. So I called her to say I'll call you laters Dude. Right.......you remember. ANywhoo, When i get to the kitchen he has me cutting up veggies and stuff. Which I don't mind. The more practice I get the better. He was making some stir-fry thing that he bought at SAMS. LOL So he just wanted to add more things, and he also wanted me to clean the shrimp. Cuz he was gonna make brown rice with shrimp. So yah, that was like 20 or 25 mins, cuz we were talking and stuff. But then as I was gonna get up to call my Jessi Bunnie. He then said, "NO, YOU AIN'T GONNA BE ON THE PHONE! WASH THE DISHES NOW!." @_@
OMG, I was like, Come again..........WHAT!
I mean he said it all mad and such and demanding and well, I don't usually listen to him when he talks to me like that. But for some reason I did. @_@
Anyways, I start washing dishes and he keeps on dirtying more and more while cooking telling me to wash them, and to wash this and taht for him. SO liek around 5 I was finally done. It was alotta dishes but I washed more that he dirtied that day. So yah, what a nerd. Then mama got home and we sat down and ate. Which lasted till alil before six. We talk alot when we eat and such. I went to register for my classes, and that took 5 mins. I then went to my room to relax and watch Tv for a bit. I was falling asleep when my mama came in the room and asked if I wanted to go with them to Wal_mart. I kinda didn't want to, and just sleep. But it was gonna be 7 soon and I said, yah I rather go out and do something. I got ready and we left. We bought groceries and my mom got me this Kool long sleeve shirt. yes its a badass shirt, LOL
I decided to call younger people that buy their stuff at Wal-mart. I decided to call them WALMART KIDZ. LOL YESH that is sooo me, Lol And then we were looking at the baby clothes, ya know for guera's baby. My dad was on the phone paying the cell phone and said that we were MIGRATING. I was like WTF?! is that, Lol
He said he paid for the bill cuz he finally yes has decided to get us the family talk plan for cingular. That we have 48 hrs, I hope its true cuz I really wnat my own phone. And a flip one too, Lol
My mom was happy and all and he said that we have to get home to check the cells on the net. So we paid and we went home. My dad looked like a kid in the candy shop, LOL
We looked at the phones and I really liked this nice black and silver flip phone, With camera and a video stream. For FREE, YES FREE!!, LOL
My mom saw them all and said she liked the ones at SAMS,(there was a cingular thingy going on there) So today my dad's job is to see if we can get that one phone for my mom from SAMS. And if they can get me the nice oh so nice black and silver flip phone. YESH!, Lol
ALLL BEFORE KARINA GETS BACK!!1
CUZ she's GONE, GONE, YES GONE, LOL
she went to Chicago to get her crap and come back. Psht, like we wnat her crap, cuz now we will have MORE CRAP. Sheezz and most of teh junk we got in the garage is hers. What a nerd!
BUT YES I WNAT MY PHONE, and KARINA IS GONE. And Jessi Bunnie is reading this and is jumping up and down with excitement, LIKE ME ^_^ LOL
OHHHHHH, REWIND
Guess who I found at the bank yesterday. It was MY VAL. I came out of teh Pee ROOM and I sat down. I heard someone calling me and it was VAL. YEAAAAAAAAHHH. I miss her lotz. I stood in line with he rtalking and we talked and talked about like an hour or more. And she did her thing in like 7 mins, LOL So yah we talked alot and about persoanl STUFF. And then she had to go, cuz her mama was calling her and telling he rto get home. Sheez what a nerd!. LOL
Ah wellz, thats about it so yah. Gotta bye ALL

Well, Yesterday on Friday my dad didn't go to work and I then decided on the way over to school. That I didn't want to go, so seeing how he was taking me to school. We then went to go get his car fixed it needed an Oxygen Restoration thingy. We waited a while while it got fixed and since we got that out of the way. He said if I wnated to go somewhere, I said BOREDERS,lmao
So we did we went to teh one at the Forum,ad we were there for a good long while. I had a gift card and I bought myself the Cd from teh Balck Eyed Peas, Ya know the one with the song of "My Humps" I juist love it, Lmao. Then my mom called and we went to go buy her food and we went to her lunch. We just sat there and watched her eat cuz my dad only had enough money to buy her soemthing to eat. Cuz we hadn't eaten anyting all day, so yahh. After she ate and we talked, we kissed and said our goodbyes. Then we went home and I went to my b-day money and told my dad that I would invite him out to eat, Lol We ate chinese Food at some place called, Ming China. It was pretty good, LOL
I was just about to pay when he said to save my money and he paidf with the credit card. So All I had to do is leave a tip, awwwwwww I know right. Super sweet. After that, we went home and I watched Tv and he took a nap. My mom then got home and they ya know talked and cuddled, Lol then soon after we wnet to sams, and there we went to get my mom's car fixed. She needed an tire rotation. BUT BUT, the best part was when we showed her the phones, the cell phones. We almost got them right thena nd THERE, BUtttt
she wanted to show Karina and have her on the plan as well. And I was all like, UGHHHHHHHHH NOOO
Cuz well Karina suxx and she's not relaible at all. She's just not at ALL. And so I wnet to look at the keybaords and I jsut palying around and I made a lil kool Tune. Annd now I WANT A KEYBAORD, LOL
But yah we ordered a pizza and went home and ate and they talked about it with Karina dn I watched Tv till I fell asleep. I woke up like 12 and wnet to bed right.

Ok, so what turned out was that my grandma left last night too. Cuz supposely she was leaving the very next morning and my uncle had left to my aunt's house. So they didn't spend the night. The next day which is today. When I got picke dup I heard that grandma didn't go afterall. And I was pissed, cuz with all the family drama. And her saying she wasn't going to ever speak to my aunt again. She Still went over to stay. Sayng that she was just gonna spend the night and leave the next day. Lies, ALL lies
I got home and my dad asked me if I wanted to go with him to take lunch to my mom. We do this alot, and vice versa with my mom and me on our wya to my dad's lunch. So we went. We got her chinese food, Yum!
And when my dad told her about my grandma, My mom started to cry. Cuz even she understood the message my grandma sent to us. That even as agry as she was with my aunt. She still rather prefered sleeping over there than over here with us. With people that won't back stab her or talk behind her back or anything. I myself wanted to cry, and I did alittle. I jsut don't understand why my grandma and all my aunts from chicago. Say that they love us, but tehy treat us different from my cousins who live over there in Chicago. Every since we were little and still living there they treated us different. My mom told us stories on how they would neglect my sister and not change them when my grandparents and my aunt's babysitted. they would have rashes becuz they wouldn't get changed at all over there. And the diaper bag would have some diapers missing. So we just put two and two together, and gathered that they had used it for my cousins. thats why I was never over there as a child or a baby. My mom made sure she took care of me, cuz she didn't want me to get mistreated as well. And ist just soemthing that my mom has that my grandma just doesn't like. She hardkly ever talks to my mom or us. When she comes to san antonio we sometimes don't even know, becuz she goes staright to my aunt's house and then left to mexuico. When we would invite her to stay here, her and my grandpa. She would saty a night or two beciuz of my grdanpa. And then go back to my aunt's house. My grandpa is the only exceptioon to the people in Chicago. He is teh only one that actually cared for us or what happened to us. When my mom wnet to surgery he took the next flight here, when my dad was sent to Iraq. he spent the entire SUMMER here and more some. He would come and stay with us for weeks and cry every time he left. he would jsut be a great person to have around, always made me think and laugh and have a good time. Cuz we had sooo much in common. I love my Grandpa. I kinda like my other family members. I guess in a way, I love them. But i don't like them as people. My aunt's from Chicago always was snooty around us. And always acted as if they're better than us. I jsut don't understand why they don't really loev us. Thats what hurts, that they don't love us and talk behind our backs as if we were criminals. I'm jsut happy that I don't live over tehre in Chicago no more. I wouldn't wnat to be as fucked up as they are over there. Cuz here I had to be my best friend first, and I love me, and thats what I gets me through my day. Cuz I know I can alwyas fall back on me and myself.
So yah, My mom cried but got better. She ate and left, and me and my dad went to the house. There I got on teh net and he wnet to watch Tv. Around 4:30 my mom gtot home. We were getting ready cuz we were going to Sams to get me a cell Phone. But then we got a call form Guera and she said that she was on her way with my grandma. Supposely they've been togetehr since eatrly in the morning, and guera did her thing and got my grandma to buy her something for her baby, Lol
Anyways, grandma got here and I avoided her. I avoided her bad becuz I was mad that she would stoop soo low as to hurt my family, make my mom cry, and msyelf. Which I try never to do. Cuz tears are a waste of time. And that she would Come all the way here just to pretend like notthing. Anyways, I said hi and kissed her cheek, And went to the kutchen and talked with guera while she ate. I had some too, it was the meatloaf from teh night before. We atlked and laughed and I felt much betetr. then guera left. And grandma was in the living room taking to my mom. I wans't apying attention till I started to clean the kitchen a bit. My garndma was crying. I heard how she felt soo betrayed and how she was sorry that she didn't spend the night.ANd how she ignored my aunt the whole time. And hwo theres soooo much tension and so much drama happening in chicago. That no one is talking to no one, And thats ALOT. I have 11 aunts and uncles in chicago. And thats not including there wives/husbands and thier kids. And how my grandpa is getting sicker and how she is too. And how she feels like evrything is falling apart. I started to walk to my room, becuz I ddin't want to hear anything. I wanted to still be mad. But she stopped me and said "Oh mijo beofre I forget" She kept on crying quietly. Tears still streaming down her cheek like a wattefall. And she handed me a 50 dollar bill. And she said, "Happy Birtyhday mi hijito." And that hit me hardm even in teh mist if her pain and agony and her sense of lost depression. She was still able to to think of me and give me a gift that means alot. And not becoz ist money, but becuz she stoopped her pain and put it aside for me. For that one second. I hugged her hard and kissed alot on her cheeks untl she laughed.
I felt sooo guolty and awful that I made her cupcakes. For her to take on teh road to eat. I just hoep she likes them. I love my grandma. But time will only tell if all these bad thinsg will make her change. I'm a bit skeptiical as to still beleieve she's a good person. But she is afterall my grandma.

Ughhhhhhhhh
Ok, so today wasn't so bad I guess. I just never realized how fast teh hours go by, when yoru doing stuff. Ok, SO my grandma was to arrive today. She did, but like forever long.
So, I get home form school. Ita like between 12:30 and 1:00. I get on the net, for a while. Check my mail, my myspace mail and other stuff. Then I start to clean the house. Washing dishes and in between signing and dancin to my songs, LOL
I cleaned the kitchen and sweeped and mopped. I clean my toilet and still tomorrow clean my shower, Ughhh. So yah I did all that, and started to make dinner. I decided to try making meatloaf. I only had done it once before but with seasoning packet. I didn't have it, so I improvised. OH I felt sooooo culinary at that moment, LOL
I started to boil like 13 potatoes for teh potatoe salad. I mix the meat with carrots and clery and all the natural things that go in a meatloaf. Then I added my seasonings, my specail mix. LOl the only problem now is that I don't remember what I put in it, LOL Ah wellz. So I stick that in the oven and make teh potatoe sald. Then when doen with that i made rice. Ughhhh so dead tired by then. I jsut wnated to drop and die. And by teh time I did all that it was alreday gonna be 7pm. AND STILL NO GRANDMA. Then I found out that she wansn't gettin in till like 10 or 11 at night. I WAS PISSEED, and I WAS LIKE WTF?!?!
Cuz I worked hard for her and my uncle to have dinner and have the house clean. And they keep changing the plans. Saying they were gonan be here monday then tuesday and then finally today for sure. Then when we did finally get a hodl of them. They said that they might stay at my aunt's house, At this point I was like, FUCK THEM
let them go and ya know, just that they could go FUCK THEMSELVES and thier FAVORITISM WAYS, ARGGGGHHHHHHHHh!!!!!!. And then KARINA opened her BIG MOUTH saying SHIT like " AHHHH but we have the House niec and cleaned for you and two beds ready for you" and all this crap. Then tehy say taht they will stay with us, then I find out that I have to give up my room to my uncle and sleep on teh floor in the living room. I MEAN COME ON. I ahev SCHOOL tomorrow, And I wake up at 5am. The only thing makinmg keep going is a my good bed. BUT NO, I ahve to sleep on the Tile floor. And karina and her air mattress. BITCH
And soo yah, so now I had to go clean my room and make the bed all nice with new sheets and sweep and mop it and dust it and all thsi crap. then they call us and tell us that they're lost. And we find out that they had passed us and was way on the route to Houstron. So that was a sign that they didn't wnat to be here. So yah.
So ok, so I didn't have a good day nwo that I think about it. IT SUXXED. ANd I just got mad at the end and well. All I knwo is that I ain't gonna be sleepin well toniet. And that suxx majorly. UGHHHHH ARGHHHH
Just pissed me off. Fuckin Bastards. I HATE THEM ALL and HOEP THEM THE WORST, UGH
*sighs*

Well, today has been really a good day. I stayed awake in math class and actually left it less confused that ever. In fact I knew what I was doing. And in my other class, man I snoozed like there was no tomorrow. The teacher, she's a kool one. But man I slept like, Like I needed bed right then and there., LOL
I got home and got on the net. And read all of Jess's journal and commented back on them. And now I'm writing in mine,LOl
Yesterday,My mom put me on nerves. See, we were coiming back from eating dinner at a restaurant and we had just bought a new computer. i know right. Awesome new Computer. And so, we get to the entry of Meadow Brook and my dad's all like. Do you wanna drive and practice. I was like HELLA YAH. LOL So I get in and strap myself and everything. My mom was freaken out and she just kept on saying watch out and slow down. And my dad was all like speed up. And well, I guess now I know I really do have to concentrate when I drive for now on. LOL But seriously, I was going in full of confidence and happy and just wnating to do it. And by the end my nerves were shot, I felt weak in the knees. It was really hard for me to drive, when I knwo I'm good and its no big deal. but I wans't stopping on time and I wasn't going fast enough. And I jsut wanted to say, BOTH OF YOU GUYS OFF THE CAR, LOL
But yah, and then at home I just watched a bit of Tv. And my dad wouldn't get off the net. Doing his homework, Liek whatever man, whatever, LOL
I decided to go to bed, I get all reday and I'm laying in bed at 10 at night. So I decide to call Jess. LOL We talked about alotta things, and now we have our own things now. Our inside jokes. Like with james and the froot loops, LOL and also................Rittee.............Excatly, LOL OMG, everytiume I would say Exactly, Jess would bust out laughing. LOL it was oh so freakne hillarious. LOL But ya I love me my Jess. LOL She sooo Roxx. LOL
Love Ya Jess, LOL
and then at 12 I wnet to bed.

GAWD, talk about being a suxxy day. Well, today My friends and I were suppose to take myspace pics. Well I dunno, I guess I was suppose to call them. Which is totally my bad. So ah well, I'm not bummed over it just ya know........bored. So yah and so Now I try calling people to see what they were doing and such. ya know to pass the time until I went to bed. LOl yes I know lame. But ah wellz. AND NO ONE PICKS UP. NO ONE. NUTTHIN AT ALL. Its like WHOA, is this MESS WITH ALBY DAY or WHAT @_@. So yah and know I'm just chillin and writing this bored entry cuz well I'm bored. @_@

This Journal entry is to say THANK YOU MUCH, to my Jessi Bunnie. Lol
cuz she totally sooooo made this so wicked HOTT, lol
Well, Today I finalyy went to school. College that is. And I didn't go Monday or Tuesday, beacause well I didn't feel like it. Y aknow school, well suxx. So yah, LOL And Today I finally went and it felt good to be out of the house. So yah It roxxed. Got home and totally updated my myspace. And Ohh I soo Roxx, LOl
LOVE YOU JESS

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